Aloha 皆、 Sorry no email last week I don't know why but I didn't feel like it. Also this one is kinda long, and pretty personal so feel free to read 'em, or don't. God gave us agency. Going off of my last email. Talking about growing through trials, one of the main reasons I came out on my mission was extremely selfish. I just wanted/needed to be a better person. I think God has a pretty funny sense of humor because it was like “ok wish granted” and smacked me in the Utah Orem mission. But while I was on my mission in Utah I was obsessed with becoming this better person. Looking back, I think I was so obsessed with being this “better person” because I felt like I had to prove my worth to others that I had hurt. Or who knew these terrible things I had done. I wanted to prove that I belonged and I wanted to feel peace. From those feelings stems the thought that consumed my mind. “I just NEED to be better” But then the mission got hard. I didn't know what I was doing...
Aloha 皆さん、 Join da Google photos https://photos.app.goo.gl/2tYzpjfjReZvcoCs7 Recently I've been feeling very stuck. Like I'm not progressing or moving forward just as a person, as a whole. It was a really crappy feeling but I kinda wasn't doing anything about it. I was too lazy to get in the grinder of working out everyday. Even when I did I let one bad day stop me from working out everyday. I was letting my scripture study be complacent, not focusing and being as diligent as I used to be during personal study. And just overall got into a rhythm of saying the same things in my prayers. Honestly I don't remember if I read this in a Devotional or heard it from someone but it's about moving forward or backwards. We as disciples of Christ do things everyday/week that helps us come closer to God and Jesus Christ. We can pray, study the scriptures, repent, go to church, be kind to others. Doing these things help us go step by step on the path to Jesus. But if we don...
Aloha 皆さん、 Life update: We just had transfers and yup, im still in Kumamoto. I'm also still a ZL (for the 6th transfer). I feel like I'm an old sage. Just kinda existing, biding and waiting for my time to die. I'm actually super glad though that I didn't transfer because the past transfer has been a blast. The college group that we have been playing sports with (soccer and volleyball) has been awesome. We've started teaching a couple of them and they really are progressing. This transfer is a 7 week transfer which normally probably feel very long but genuinely love the area, my comp, and the friends we have so it'll probably fly by. No real crazy stories or anything. Just know I miss you all so very much, I love you guys🫶 Scripture thought: Alma 26:30 30 And we have suffered all manner of afflictions, and all this, that perhaps we might be the means of saving some soul; and we supposed that our joy would be full if perhaps we could be the means of saving s...
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