Elder Porter Ellis

  Aloha 皆さん、 Transfer is over and I'm still in Kitakyushu (I thank the lord everyday) and I'm with a Japanese comp! Toya 長老 is awesome, he knows my trainer really well and he's an awesome guy, I got to talk to him before when I was in Fukuoka and I'm excited for the next two transfers (please)!  Rasumensun 長老 moved to fukuoka to be AP. That was highly expected. He was a good comp but pretty hard at times.  Honestly there was so much I wanted to write about, and as I reflect on the transfer there's two things in particular I think I wanna share. “It's not that deep” Before I became a Zone Leader with Rasumensun 長老 I wasn't very strict with mission rules (not that I've changed a whole lot). But rather it wasn't a big deal to me if someone wasn't following them. I also wasn't very strict with myself and fell into some habits. Rasumensun 長老 was the complete opposite as I was. It was good because it did help me build better habits (like waking up ...

  Aloha 皆、 Sorry no email last week I don't know why but I didn't feel like it. Also this one is kinda long, and pretty personal so feel free to read 'em, or don't. God gave us agency. Going off of my last email. Talking about growing through trials, one of the main reasons I came out on my mission was extremely selfish. I just wanted/needed to be a better person. I think God has a pretty funny sense of humor because it was like “ok wish granted” and smacked me in the Utah Orem mission. But while I was on my mission in Utah I was obsessed with becoming this better person. Looking back, I think I was so obsessed with being this “better person” because I felt like I had to prove my worth to others that I had hurt. Or who knew these terrible things I had done. I wanted to prove that I belonged and I wanted to feel peace. From those feelings stems the thought that consumed my mind.  “I just NEED to be better” But then the mission got hard. I didn't know what I was doing...