Week 62- It's not that deep brah
Aloha 皆さん、
Transfer is over and I'm still in Kitakyushu (I thank the lord everyday) and I'm with a Japanese comp! Toya 長老 is awesome, he knows my trainer really well and he's an awesome guy, I got to talk to him before when I was in Fukuoka and I'm excited for the next two transfers (please)!
Rasumensun 長老 moved to fukuoka to be AP. That was highly expected. He was a good comp but pretty hard at times.
Honestly there was so much I wanted to write about, and as I reflect on the transfer there's two things in particular I think I wanna share.
“It's not that deep”
Before I became a Zone Leader with Rasumensun 長老 I wasn't very strict with mission rules (not that I've changed a whole lot). But rather it wasn't a big deal to me if someone wasn't following them. I also wasn't very strict with myself and fell into some habits. Rasumensun 長老 was the complete opposite as I was. It was good because it did help me build better habits (like waking up on time). But I also found myself becoming extremely annoyed at certain times. Always thinking “bro it's not that deep” as I would get told about small things. It was annoying at times and to me it was always something so small. But I also found myself thinking to myself the same thing. If it's something so small, me getting annoyed at my companion because he's focused on something “small” is literally the same thing. I'm also focusing on something so small.
It's so easy for us to get caught up on little things, daily annoyances, minor inconveniences. At least for me it is. It truly is something I admire about my dad and brother (at least when they do it, not everyone is perfect). My Dad and Brother have this amazing power to just say “Ok.” and move on. While unfortunately me and my sister take after our mom (sorry not sorry) and we focus on every small detail, every minor annoyance, we always have to be the ones who are right. It's like a burning desire that we have to be in the right, even if we aren't.
Example:
Me and my companion went to gyomu ( a supermarket one day). I was hungry so I had bought a piece of toast with egg and ham on it to eat and as my companion was packing his groceries up I went outside to eat said toast. I could see my companion but I wasn't necessarily in the sound aspect of “sight and sound” (missionaries should always be within sight and sound of their companion for safety reasons mostly). My companion came out of the grocery store and said:
“Why didn't you wait inside for me?”
“I wanted to eat.”
“You should have waited till after to do that.”
I was not very happy. The whole bike ride home I was just dwelling on how stupid that was. My Father or Brother most likely would've just said “ok” and moved on but literally the entire bike ride home I was livid.
“Its not that deep, how dare he get so focused on such a small thing”
(LOL hindsight)
“Its not even that big of a deal, bruh”
Justifying my annoyance, thinking I was in the right.
It took me the entire bike ride home to realize that I was also the one focusing on something so small and so insignificant. I knew I was in the wrong once I realized it. But it doesn't make it any harder to not focus on the small things. Recognition is important.
I wish I could tell you I learned how to say “ok” and let something go fast but unfortunately I'm still a little slow. I do eventually recognize it but I still needa work on that.
Proverbs 16:32 reads
“He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and he that ruleth his spirit than he that taketh a city.”
Emotions are hard to control. But that's why we are here. To learn, to grow and to have hard experiences that allow us to control our emotions.
The second thing I wanna talk about is growth. When I was thinking about writing an email about rules and standards and what not I wasn't really going to because I thought I didn't really learn anything. I mean yeah I thought more about the standards the I ever have my entire mission but I didn't become this completely standards loving missionary. Not at all. So I was gonna scrap the whole email. But in reality I did grow.
Sometimes it's really hard to see our own growth. Although at times we may not see progress or even notice anything. We can get down on ourselves or even quit because we don't see progress, or even because of a small setback we can get hard on ourselves.
Remember to reflect and look back and see how far you've come.
I love you, Heavenly Father loves you, and Jesus Christ loves you.
Highlights:
-MLC
-Transfers
-CAR
-Packed Transfer
MLC:
Went to MLC, it was fun to see everyone again and the whole MTC district was there. The food was fire, I mainly enjoyed seeing everybody again though!
Transfers:
I LOVE TRANSFERS, especially when I get to go to hakata and see everyone. I got to see my greenie and a bunch of missionaries I've been in past areas with. Honestly it's so much fun. Also my comp became the AP so I got to go to the Mission home and see all the new missionaries. Always fun.
CAR:
RAHHHHHHH. YA BOY IS ON WHEELS FINALLY. I said all the way back in fukuoka that maybe one day I'd be rolling in a Toyota one day. That's day us here! I got to drive the car back from MLC and to and from transfers, it was fire. From Kitakyushu to Fukuoka is about an hour and a half each way. It was great to drive again and it's really convenient. And we get to use it for exchanges which is awesome! I didn't get a car in my reassignment and when I finally got a Japanese license they took away all the cars from the ZLs so I never got a chance. But it's my time now😭
Packed transfers:
We have a ton of exchanges this transfer and so the transfer is real Packed. Last transfer flew by with all the stuff we had and so I'm super stoked for this next transfer too!
Side note: real sad that a bunch of awesome missionaries left but hey I'll see em all after the mish so it's fine. I'm not trunky (hahahahahaahagagagagagaha)
Alright no more time sorry bah
Join the Google photo album or go take a dive in the Ala Wai
Shoots den!
愛してるよ~
エリス長老
TheRisingSon
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